Pissed oFF

No more

2005-04-04T18:36:00.000-07:00

I think this is my final blog le.. and mi final post i tink. Yesterday wanna sleep but can't than i think alot of things, quite funny that i was feeling sad, lonely, weird happy all of those things..everything flash in front of mi eyes. Than finally i know what i can tok to to some pple some topics that which cannot be talk about wif. Than i think i wun share secrets with anyone else le.

This blog is the last one and no more writing into it le. Btw to all who are reading this, thanz for reading it and knowing more about mi. Just to tell u wat type of person i tink i am " i am quite a quiet person actually but i would like to be very chatty all of that...it was once i am this kind of person de. But fear have always overtaken mi so i tend to look, look more on life and y is everyone happy than i will smile, pple sad, i will also feel a little sad.

Yesterday i feel the stabbing into the heart feeling again.. .dunno y i keep feeling this, Sort of hate this feeling and wanna break down cause its giving mi a headache. Dun wanna tok about it anymore cause it comes everytime i tink 2 much. But if i dun tink 2 much i am not andrew the one pple know who thinks. Anyway as this is the last time writing to this blog, All things will be keep alone in mi heart, not gonna let people know about it anymore. So for love side i dunno whats going to happen but in the end i tink still will be the same ba..unless she proves mi wrong by loving mi~? which i dunno when will love come to me.

This is gonna be The End le...soo...good bye blog. ~~~ sayoZ for the last time le~

Wah liaoz Eh!!!!

2005-04-03T18:09:00.000-07:00

OMG...i wanna kill daniel ooi liaoz..just now slp at company than call him to call mi up when off work he neber sia...than i slp all the way till 8.30am wo...than i hab to took cab home de nehx.... Later than i gonna kill him...

Yesterday alot of things going thru mi mind. Think till i like going crazy le but i cannot help it...its me. Than headache a while till i really just lie down and got knocked out all the way till 8.30am...i was like omg omg omg...than quickly go out of the company and took cab sia~ Than now back to me problem. Dunno whether is it me, but i guessing maybe its me who is single sided again. Hope not i prefer But i found out just now before i got knocked off that its just a gentle smile to reject me without hurting me.

Wish all this nightmares i have is not really true, I am just a stupid, childish, boring little guy who got into single sided relationship always. Guess its just my destiny ba. Who can change it? i hope someone will ba.

N3v3r To B3 L0v3d all Th3 Tim3~

Avril's Adventure

2005-04-02T08:39:00.000-08:00

Today not a bad day after all....just now i went to Junction 8 to meet jessie to eat, than i dunno why but the feeling was right and i like it beri much....dunno i got bored her anot de.

Than after eat finish le, we meet charlene than i pay for her cab first....anyway, went to the avrils concert, fun and glad to see her so happy, and the first time the 2 of us actually went out alone. I tink i was feeling weird cause started to get weird in the middle and mi hand started to speak nonsense again le.

Finish concert, bought for jess the avril card thingy than sit a cab to send her home. I dunno should i regret it or what but i convert mi feelings to let her know. If i do not tell her, i dun think i will have a good chance to let her know, not thru sms or phone call but thru my mouth itself. Anyway things that i predicted are true and i already sort of know that is either she says this or that she will reject me straight. Lucky for me tat did not happen so guess its today turn out quite well le.

Now 1am le....listening to the songs i recorded there...lucky turn out quite okie...but in the middle got me and jessie the "trying to tok" voice... (>.<) haha...so send her i a bit paiseh later got mi voice when hearing.... (>_<) than she will keep playing back and find out wat i saying ba....hahaha :P (just kidding).

K le...dun say no more le....now i guess i can't sleep so chat wif mi frenx online le ba and play mi games. SayoZ

Happen

2005-03-30T22:48:00.000-08:00

Hmmmm..today off again le....took 2 days of mi leave le...than total got 5 days holiday liaoz....hope to have a beautiful memories before end of it ba....Confirm the tickets to avril's concert, siting at the center...hope that everythings gonna be alright ba....that is gonna be mi date wif jess...alone i guess...

Than today gonna go out wif wendy....acutally gonna go JB de...but we both overslept than bo bian le....than we going to far east liaoz..now still 3pm ...early i guess...4.30 then meet her at bueona vista station. Hmmmm...today i guess we'll be just walking around than talk talk and catch up on old times ba~

MMMmmm...

2005-03-26T12:56:00.000-08:00

Just got home only..now 27th of march le...than daniel send mi home by his bike..haha..funny he got lost sia :P than okie...now for the previous update of mi life.....
on the 25th (Friday) was fun and happy..went out wif Jess, jas, kexin, charlene and terrance. Than we go watch the eye10~ but 2 bad she not sitting besides mi sia..argh i go...than alone kanna tio hang when i peep at her than look back at the screen sia..haha..fun fun fun~

Than actually wanna send her back home de, but than since her sis there le so dun need le i guess...Anyway, before that we went to eat the jap restaurant. Very shiok and nice to eat, and jap till i blur sia...su yi ma sak~~ :P than althought did not tok much to her, but i tink she rather spend her time toking wif her fren ba....tats wat i guess...than i dun wanna disturb...only can sometime in a few mins like tok to her than let her fren tok to her le~~~

Hmmm..tat day over liaoz. than next day i got the news For avril's concert..feel like going to watch wif her..at least alone.....but than i scared i will bored her sia...ever since that day, i dunno wat happen to mi like hard to tok to her like before le. Than mi mind will go DNL again. DNL DNL DNL............haiz~ hope i can overcome this thing again so tat mi life will be better.~~~

26march(saturday)le~~ went to cine wif ray go pak Pool~ than met daniel, than wow...suddenly saw charlene sia...than tok a while, than she got fast news sia..tat i wanted to buy the tickets for jess...than oops..now i really wan to go...hope mi that supervisor dun set mi OT cause of that stupid training thingy ba~~~ OH...gtg..have to check sistic for timing le~ Sayoz~!

WAhhh...

2005-03-24T12:03:00.000-08:00

Tired liaoz...tomolo after outing than i complete...anyway...played wif kitten just now :P hehheehhe..kawaii cute~ got photo..NaH~!

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NutZ

2005-03-22T03:09:00.000-08:00

I think i going nuts about ragnarok the game le..haha..in just 3 days like tat already lvl60 liao :P hmmm...than now jess go genting le..hope she have a nice day wor...than today work, tomolo dunno got ot anot..but than the most wish i have is to go into a school..either be it nyp or mdis ...hope to study again le~~ wish mi luck woR!! sayoZZ~!~!~!~

Hmm...

2005-03-20T13:52:00.000-08:00

Just now at home playing RO play till i tink i go siao le... play whole day.. than go out to jp that time, vodka and shar wanna meet..than we go there watch the son of mask the movie.... hmmmmmm...tomolo dunno she wanna meet anot...than now i still playing mi RO...i tink i going crazy le..haha
Than later i tink slp awhile liaoz i try sms see she will wanna meet a while anot ba..dunno when she will be going ...tink i gonna miss her ba~ now still playing RO..lvl up till 40+ in just 2 days...now tired le...

Refrain

2005-03-19T05:58:00.000-08:00

Must refrain....i cannot be loved.....

Thou should not be love. although heart says it wants to be in, Mind says not to any more. To love means to hurt. Even thou i'm now hurt, But as long mind over heart, i guess i dun dare to go 2 deep. And have to tell myself DNL DNL DNL DNL.....tats how everyday my life goes. Now even mi mind says tat while heart is taking a knife and trying to pierce thru and get the satisfy feeling cause its 2 pain that even a knife stabbing will feel more better~~

Just now go out wif jess,kexin,charlene. Went to watch boogey man, quite nice and scary wor~ enjoyed it. Than we go eat at far east plaza~ walk here and there, although is tired but quite glad cause everyones happy.. I just pei them viseVersa they pei mi out. So just see them happy shopping i happy also.

Finally...When will somebody ever love mi? will even anybody love mi? if anybody loved mi, how long will that somebody love mi? Will i love that somebody as much as b4? can my heart take the pressure of loving anybody once again? All this tok and mind brainstorming...i guess i better leave it to nobody to love. Hope has gotten out of my life, dun believe in that anymore.

Yeah~~

2005-03-18T10:24:00.000-08:00

Hmmmm..i bought alot of things today wo...esp the 17 inch lcd monitor...shiok... for mi com tat is ..yeah~ than wah..so late le i still playing sia~~~ ehhehe..tomolo going out...think i go orh orh le...nitez liaoz!
Hope tomolo i'll have a good days out le~

Time passes more~~

2005-03-17T02:08:00.000-08:00

Haiz...now really feeling alone like misuzu le...time pass and i pass my time by dunno doing wat le.. go out..also no mood. Than today actually wanna go jp..than instead stop by ginza first...but then after ginza...i went home liaoz le..nothing to do..no one to pei mi, Guess i wanna go home and slp le..think later dunno wat time i'll wake, but than hope tomolo got things to do ba. and maybe someone might wanna pei mi le.

Off till tuesday...being the pathetic me. steadless, no one love, Lonely is my game i guess. its hard to try so hard to gain wat i cannot. Feel like giving up dreams...all of it le.. No hopes no life. I guess tats my destiny ba~

Sad Lonely World is here~

Time Passes By

2005-03-14T17:25:00.000-08:00

And my life still survive...i dunno how i did this...but it seems that even without someone loving mi, i pass my everyday life planning. Planning tat one day i might have a future.

Trying to get to nyp/mdis(IT)/school of infomatics. Dunno man...now just completed a portfolio for nyp...it sux i can say...but i have no time left to do things and i dun have much tools also.. Think i gotta try my luck now. If enrolled in, i'll try mi best for mi future le.

Now just came back from work only..later on going nyp le..dun nid to slp i guess.... than maybe also eat outside, taun outside a while b4 going home, change, if got time slp a while ba...if not straight go to work. Tired or wat...dun care le. Tired of planning sometimes, but hope someone will pei mi today..But thats a wish...Just like the animation "AIR" i think i am Misuzu...someone that trys 2 hard sometimes...gotta be alone by myself and get used to it. ~~ Go watch the "AIR" animation again le~

Wooooo

2005-03-13T01:59:00.000-08:00

Wah...yesterday go rush, then i go key siao drink drink drink...forget mi limit than a bit more than high le...haha..than yesterday i feel something was missing like tat le....dunno wat. Dance finish le, Rui shan and karen go home,then i go to the kopitiam at the besides rush that one than wah...drink the chilli soup liaoz drunk also awake le.

Actually Dan and joreen wanna go play pool the. But closed liaoz so bo bian le. Than mi and Ray sit cab go home...wah...dunnno how much i spend sia...next time i think i order mi own jug..one jug miself tats all i can drink if i dance ba...haha...cannot drink 2 much sia..starting drink vodka,than Tiger, then drink dunno wat again wor~~ :P K le....going to work le~~ SayozZ~

Na bei

2005-03-09T08:13:00.000-08:00

Ta Ma De sianz....today....wah liaoz...actually good mood go chiong than tat toot toot tok to mi on phone like i own her like tat than i pissed off so neber go. Than now at home si bei sianz...just now should hab gone on mi own also...now also change le lazy go change go down rush again liao le... Argh.... Think i saturday than go down ba~
Than now trying to set mi mind rite first b4 i go do anything stupid again...~~ later in the morning if got anything than i add in this post ba~~ SaaayooooaRA!

Hey yo~

2005-03-08T17:46:00.000-08:00

Hmmm...another new life i tink i am going to go on le.....hmmmmm..1st posting... y RushGH?? cause i beginning to go chiong again le...later on got to go buy mi contact lens the solution le...than go bowling, than go chiong. Than next day than work..haha~~ SayyooooNaRA~!